When you wake up and get out of bed in the morning, what sort of mood are you in?
When I think back a few years, before I found the Law of Attraction, I would mostly be in a foul state of mind!
I now shudder whenever I think back to those mornings. A typical start would be a brief glance in the mirror followed by an expletive and a sharp self put down of myself. ‘Tut! Same old Stupid Face…I wonder what crap I’ve got to deal with today?’
I would then go about my daily duties like getting the kids up for school, making breakfast, making a cup of tea for my husband who would just be coming off a night shift, then getting myself ready for work…all done in a robotic, miserable state of mind!
How on earth did I get through the rest of the day??
Work would be the same drudgery; just getting through it was a trial. I’d then come back home, fix dinner, wash the dishes, go about some ironing, watch a bit of T.V. then slope off to bed to often lie awake wondering why my life was so awful and how it was never going to change.
Throughout the day, little things would greatly annoy me. Simple things like dropping a fork would be met with a muttering of ‘stupid idiot!’ (or worse!)
The television and radio news would make my teeth grind with anger, my neighbour would be out in the garden being chirpy just as I made an appearance and I would be greeted with a cheery hello and a conversation would have to be entered into…when all I really wanted to do was tell her to F*** off! (Sorry, but that’s how I was)
I can remember those feelings well and I hang my head in shame at the thought of them.
God forbid if anyone won the jackpot on a T.V. program! I would hate them with a passion and it would grind my gears for the next hour or so. I would be evil in my appraisal of them. ‘Why are they so lucky?’ ‘What makes them so special?’ ‘They must live a charmed life….why can’t I live a charmed life just like them?’
I would openly laugh if they failed and lost everything. What a horrible human being I was.
Yet this was going on year after year and it reflected on my lifestyle. No wonder ‘good things’ never happened to me and no wonder my life was spiralling out of all control.
That wonderful painting by Edvard Munch ‘The Scream’ totally summed up how I felt. I have a copy in my house to remind me never to go back there!
I really, honestly, thought this was how my life was supposed to be, I couldn’t see a way out. I was trapped and was only capable of digging myself deeper into the misery.
Was this a mental problem? Was it depression? Was I delusional? Paranoid?
Yes…all of these.
But I refused to believe that I needed help. I’m not one for taking prescribed drugs that only mask the problem and I also hated the thought that I actually had a problem.
It was around 5 years ago when it dawned on me that things really weren’t going to get any better and my future was only going to decay even further. My husband was in the same boat. I’ve written more about how our lives used to be and how we got into this mess in this post, so I won’t go over it again here. Needless to say, we both had had enough of life and needed help in some form or other. That help came in the form of The Law of Attraction.
The only way we could make a life shift was to truly believe in the Law of Attraction. My husband took the idea a little lightly to begin with, but I threw my heart and soul into it.
I’d read Wallace D Wattles ‘The Science of Getting Rich’ then Napoleon Hill’s ‘Think and Grow Rich’ books 3 times each in 3 weeks. I then watched a series of lectures from Bob Proctor…almost in a trance like state. Nothing was going to get in the way of me and my family living the life we wanted. I lived and breathed those programs. I wanted to understand what I had to do.
Since then, I’ve studied Esther & Jerry Hicks, Joe Vitale, Jack Canfield and a host of other Law of Attraction authors. The movie ‘The Secret‘ helped enormously too.
Today, to get things rolling, I would recommend the ‘Manifestation Miracle’ by Heather Matthews. If this publication had been around in those early days, we would have benefited all the sooner.
It’s a great place to start if you feel the same as I did back in the day. I would have loved to have been able to write that book, but Heather hits the nail on the head anyway so no need for me to improve on that.
I try not to think about how I used to react to situations in my life. They hold such negativity that I shun them out as much as I can. They do reappear now and again, but only as a reference point in my posts.
I look upon those dark days as having a mental illness, but fortunately I was sane enough to get out of it. That mental illness is confusion which leads to depression which leads to a breakdown…it’s not a route I recommend at all.
If you find yourself berating yourself for tiny insignificant failures, or you go about beating yourself up at every turn, then you may want to look at the Law of Attraction as a way of cutting out those traits. Once those traits have been eliminated and your mindset has been altered, the path to your real self becomes clear.
That voice you hear that tells you you’re no good, you won’t win, you can’t win, you won’t improve, you’re unlucky, you’re a loser is the voice of YOU! Why tell yourself things like that?
You are unique. There is no one in this world like you. There is no one in this world who can tell you what to think. There is no one in this world that can change you…except YOU.
Think about that for a minute.
Only YOU can change YOU. And it’s all in your head, right there, waiting for change. Do you want to change?
It will take time, but what a journey! You find out just what it is you really want and you realise you can get it by just changing yourself…nobody else…just yourself. And remember; only YOU can do that.
To get started I recommend Wallace D Wattles ‘The Science of Getting Rich‘ It’s a very easy read, if a little old fashioned, but the lessons are there. I don’t agree with everything in it and there are one or two sections that go against my belief (I’m not a religious person) but the principles are there and they are the foundation to finding the secret.
To get a more modern approach, then the Manifestation Miracle will put you on the right path. It’s well written and produced and goes into a lot of detail as to how to get what you want in your life.
Don’t be like me as I was 5 years ago…life is far too short to be Despicable Me!